Daily Three Things Survey.

As often as possible, post the following in your journal:
★ Three things that made you happy today.
★ Three things that made you sad today.
★ Three things that made you angry today.
★ Three things you did today.
★ Three things you ate or drank today.
★ Three thoughts you have/had today.
★ A song lyric that applies to you or your situation today.


( Bliss )

I'm not having a good day today. 

I've felt a bit on and off for the past few days, both health and mind wise but I've kept it together like a pro and rose above it and I've felt fine. I've got my girl to thank for most of that, she makes me feel so much better without trying.

Today however, I feel absolutely horrible. I keep feeling really sick all of a sudden, I'm really over emotional and today I've cried over everything and can't stop, and I have absolutely no urge to put food in my mouth. My appetite has just vanished - my stomach is going crazy and rumbling but I don't want to eat, the thought at the minute makes me feel like i'm going to be sick if I try. I couldn't even finish a can of coke that I opened earlier. I do have some idea what's wrong with me but I can't really say because the situation is entirely different. The last time I felt like this was when I was causing the problem myself by not eating. I could go for days without food and eventually it came to a point where I had no appetite and being hungry didn't bother me. I became overly depressed and I was under so much stress at the time. Does this work the other way round? Yeah, I have been having slight problems with food lately, but not enough to not eat, so is it possible that I feel like this because again I'm under a lot of stress and am pretty low? I don't know. I think the fact that I've focused on eating as little as possible lately has contributed to it, but I just don't know. I'm so confused, I don't know what to do aside from cry, and then I get mad at myself because I'm crying and I need to stop and be strong and support my girlfriend and family. 
I'm barley making sense, I think doing a daily meme will be better than this crap.  

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Daily Three Things Survey.

As often as possible, post the following in your journal:
★ Three things that made you happy today.
★ Three things that made you sad today.
★ Three things that made you angry today.
★ Three things you did today.
★ Three things you ate or drank today.
★ Three thoughts you have/had today.
★ A song lyric that applies to you or your situation today.


( Baking fun! )

Daily Three Things Survey.

As often as possible, post the following in your journal:
★ Three things that made you happy today.
★ Three things that made you sad today.
★ Three things that made you angry today.
★ Three things you did today.
★ Three things you ate or drank today.
★ Three thoughts you have/had today.
★ A song lyric that applies to you or your situation today.

( Ohooo, it's a short one! )

Wow...I have been pretty absent from LJ lately. I was starting to post everyday and then just stopped. I guess I didn't have much to say ;]

It's been a really good few weeks. I went back to the doctors and they told me that there is nothing wrong with me which pissed me off, but eh. Lex has had trouble with work and she's been off, so I've been spending every day and night with her, and i'm still here :] My parents and brother have gone on holiday to Majorca and I decided to stay back in the UK with Lex because I can't bring myself to leave her...it's hard enough when we're an hour apart, but in different countries with limited ways to talk? Not doing it!

I started working on a few things today - I felt really creative earlier so I fired up Photoshop (I need CS4, PS7 just isn't doing it anymore :S non of the brushes I try and download will install!) and grabbed Lex's camera and stared. I was flicking through a book of hers - "Comic Book Tattoo" [which is pretty amazing] and saw things I wanted to edit, so I snapped photos and uploaded them to my laptop, and i've spent pretty much most of the morning and afternoon re-touching the very first image.

Before:


After:



It's not completely finished yet, I need to print on the background and add a few more things to the bird, but it's getting there. This afternoon has reminded me of when I was at Thornes and used to stay behind after lectures and classes to use the tech workshop and do similar things with my work. I'd spend hours on a mac re-touching, re-editing, adding, taking away, re-colouring, scanning things in..everything. I loved it. I frequently had to be sent home by the cleaners so they could start their work, ha.

I found a comm on here earlier, focused on letters that people have written to others but never sent them. Reading them felt odd, but good. I think I might try it, write a letter as if I'm going to send it and get everything off my chest and then do nothing with it. Delete it, post it..anything with it. I think it might help. I hope so anyway. 

I'm also back into writing fic, ha!! Well proud of myself, it's just a start (of actual fic, not just a plan) but that's better than absolutely nothing, right? I can't wait for the weekend to be here, no work, no pleasing people, just me and my girl. Whooo.

No mans land Wednesday! I don't like the middle of the week. Thursday is better, Friday is awesome and the weekend? Fucking 'A.

Yesterday was Todd's birthday (one of my brothers friends) so this morning we payed for him [and ourselves] to have 30 minutes F1 Karting to celebrate. I've only ever been a few times in Majorca which is really good! It's an outdoor track over there, and even though the karts don't go very fast i've always had fun and won a few times! The one that we went to this morning was indoor and pretty big, and the karts were fast - they go over 40mph if you're on a bigger track and can really put your foot down.

We were given a balaclava to put on, red and black karting overalls, a really heavy helmet and gloves so our hands didn't slip on the wheel. Apparently, it's usually really full and you have to go around the track with other drivers too but it was just us 3 so we had the track to ourselves. Both of the boys hit the barriers and spun out twice, and i'm really proud that I didn't although I did clip a wall going too fast round a corner and came up out of the seat. It hurt a lot more than I expected it to and for the next few laps I felt really sick :S I think it was the shock too, I hit it really hard! I didn't win, and i'm not a sore loser, it's been ages since i've been on so I didn't expect to. I think the highlight was when the guy who was in the pit held up a "Calm Down" sign at me and rolled his eyes when I shot past him. Ha!

I completed 39 laps in 30 minutes, and my best lap was 0:44:72, which i'm really impressed at seeing as my first 2 were in the 50's! The longest lap was 1:02:96 because the pit dude held up a "Pedals" sign and made me stop to tell me that I shouldn't press both pedals at the same time :P I got to a top speed of 25mph and drove at an average speed of 23.4mph. I had fun! They gave me a sheet of paper with a graph and my results/lap times etc etc which I am going to cherish, because I doubt i'll go again for a while.

I've started going swimming at a private, heated indoor pool owned by someone that lives quite near to me. It backs onto his house, and it's really nice, I went with Lex last week and I loved it. I love swimming, it eases my body pain and makes me feel better, I'm a proper water baby. I'm not that strong of a swimmer - I used to be until I got sick and then I had to learn all over again, but I really really enjoy it. I want to start getting fit again. I used to run all the time, as well as cycle and go to the gym but last year when I totally crashed and burned from work I had to stop because I was so exhausted. I think some of that exhaustion is starting to lift, so I'm going to start gently easing myself back into exercise. Running, swimming, cycling, tennis, yoga..try and stop me! :)

Nothing much else to say today..how boring. I may find a meme to do while I drink my tea and dust my wii fit off. Maybe.

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I know the directors cut version is sexier - hello, underwear dancing, but seriously... It just proves you don't need to be running around naked to look, ya know, hawt.

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